Rent A Date Diary,

Sunday’s Sentiment

Please help me to figure out what seems to be the impossible. I want the best of both worlds. I want to feel like I have a boyfriend yet feel as free as a bird to live my full life without that commitment. I want the “boyfriend experience.” Aaaah (sigh). I want to have fun, feel special, and feel empowered. But, I must independently tend to the rest of my life. In a nutshell, I need to rent a date! Does such a thing even exist?! Would a man really come into and out of my life on my terms, as I need and want him? A girl can dream, right? I’m signing off to sleep on the idea. Zzzzz.

Monday’s Musing

I am pleased to report I have found an answer! It does exist in a big way. Apparently, what I’m feeling is “a thing.” Numerous women flock to find the same experience as I seek. Okay, here’s the plan: contact Cowboys 4 Angels ASAP to rent a date. This male companion agency is precisely what I want! Who knew my visions of this concept exist and, apparently, flourish in the real world?! Cowboys 4 Angels is the best. Their straight male companions are dynamic men whose lives are dedicated to placing women at the center of their world. Count me in. I’m off to request my date!

Tuesday’s Testimonial

OMG, I called! I’m so excited that I’m embarrassed to admit it even to myself. I spoke to Garren James, the adorable owner of the agency, who was the sweetest. That conversation perfectly set the tone for me. I’m meeting this to-die-for man who is holding the date open especially for me! The plan is set. We’re going to a small Italian spot in the hippest part of town. I envision we’ll sit in the dim, candelabra-lit bistro and just talk and talk. That’s what I want to do. I want to chat about the ways of the world with a man.

Wednesday’s Waxing Poetic

What will we talk about? I definitely want to tell him about my success. I never get to show off or brag to a guy because I’m always afraid he’ll resent me for it. This time will be pleasantly different. When you rent a date, you rent an opportunity to show a side of yourself that you love but you cannot easily show in your real life.

Thursday’s Thought

The Outfit. I am deciding what to wear on my Cowboys 4 Angels date. Should I go casual, fancy, or hip? Aah! Decisions, decisions. I’ll admit it because you already know it’s true; this part is so much fun! I may act annoyed when it comes to these choices. But, really, I love it…I’m going with the black cocktail dress and styling it down with some fun, colorful jewelry. As for the shoes…high heels will be great. My Cowboy is very tall!

Friday’s Feeling

“Hi, Gorgeous.” This is how it started. I walked into the bistro and immediately spotted this handsome man staring and smiling at me. I swear to you, for a moment, I forgot…I forgot myself and got all flirtatious-feeling inside. Only moments later did I realize he was there for me. He was my Cowboys 4 Angels male companion who was waiting for my arrival. For a second, I got bashful. I was abashed to be so obviously flattered by his mere glance and then by his greeting. But within seconds, I got excited. He kissed me on the cheek and sort of loosely took my hand into his. He took my coat and put his arm around my waist. I was officially on a date, I thought. Already, I felt safe and connected. I was titillated by my decision to rent a date.

We sat at a cozy, secluded table for two. We somehow avoided the whole resume-listing exercise that kicks off most dates. We just knew…we knew we were there to be in the moment. We didn’t need to rattle off a list of questions to decipher each other’s future plans. We were there to get to know each other as real people, who each possessed many facets: some upbeat, some more serious, some hilarious, and some endearing. We joined forces to live life together for those moments. Sure, we shared things from our pasts and dreams for our future. But, it wasn’t a test. Nobody was vetting the other person for his or her eligibility as a future mate. Instead, it was peaceful and focused on the present. We laughed and shared empathy. We listened and reflected. We found a lot in common yet appreciated where our strengths were more unique. In sum, we got along beautifully. I felt a sense of well-being and connectedness that I haven’t felt in a long time, not even from scribbling these notes to you, dear Diary! There’s something magical about hearing the other person’s reaction to your story. It’s one thing for me to hash out my truths in this pretty, little journal (and I love the velveteen cover, by the way). But, to hear a man reflect my thoughts back to me is incredibly meaningful, I must admit.

The night went on. We twirled our freshly, home-made pasta noodle dishes; we imbibed; we talked until the candle on the table burned out; we finished with something sweet and decadent….

Saturday’s Statement

I loved it. Now that I feel so comfortable with how it works and how I feel in the dynamic, I totally want to rent a date in new ways too. You know that day-at-the-beach, which my girlfriends are planning this June? Well, most of them will bring their beaus to build the sandcastles with them. I’ve been dreading flying solo. But, I’m calling Cowboys 4 Angels for that day. Then there’s the wedding, my family’s out-of-town surprise birthday party for my aunt, etc… When can I go again? I want another turn! I am ready to rent a date again!

Love Always,
Me